the feeling of getting attached with someone.

sometimes i wonder,

do people really find an enjoyment

when they're getting attached with someone?

when someone becomes a part of your routine,

and you spend most of the time with them.

do people really find a happiness when they're getting attached by someone?

what if out of nowhere they all just disappear in one snap?

do people get the feeling of hurt and lost?

do people still think themselves worthy?

day by day

i always think the idea of getting attached by someone,

it's just useless

and also terrifying

you give someone a way to your soul,

then one day you watch them walk away.

the pattern will always be the same

nothing change.

maybe not in your life, but it is in mine.

multiple times

watching people walk away

and leave me behind

it made me thinking

whether there is something wrong with myself,

or it is because their needs already filled by the time i spend with them.

they said i'm too hard on myself,

so that i build a high wall.

a wall that blocks the access to take out the monsters i have

and the access for everyone to see the real me.

oh cmon,

who wants to see a girl

who has a shattered soul

and a pathetic life?

everyone's already stressed with their own life

and i don't wanna be the reason why they get more difficulty in life

just because a pathetic one getting attached with them.