i thought we could be the second version of paul and gita.

one time,

i had a high hope.

it was about you and i.

it was about us that could end up together like paul and gita.

but unfortunately,

it will never come true.

i shouldn't hope that much in the first place.

i should've known that no matter how much i try,

you will never ever be a gita for me.

i always hope that i can get a paul someday.

but i was wrong.

i am the paul,

and what i need is not paul, but gita.

and i found gita in you.

but all the hopes that i have kept neatly,

it was ruined when i heard something from your mouth.

"ken, i have a girlfriend." you smiled

and i forced myself to smile when i knew it.

i tried my best to be as supportive as i can.

i tried my best to be happy in front of you.

i tried my best to laugh when i knew you had a great time together with her.

and i tried to look normal when i knew she is so much in everything than me.

i wish you knew what i did that night,

it was a lie.

no, i was not as happy as you see

it was all just a pretense

it was all just a way to make you stay with me.

if i could be honest that night,

i really wanted to cry and told u

"why did you do this to me after everything we've been through?"

i really wanted to show all of my emotion

and made you believe that i was not fine.

but i am nobody.

i am just a friend who have a crush on her friend

i should've known you are just joking around in the first place

and i should've laughed, not falling in love.

now you found your own version of gita.

or maybe she is a paul like me.

it is hard for me to say

but i hope you can be happy together with her

even though i have to be sincere

after i knew the position i always hope for

was already filled by her.