hi, how are u?

it's been 2 weeks i haven't heard anything from you.

about the days you have been through

about the jokes you always tell

about the little attention you give every time we talk

and the curse words you always say then you apologize that much.

how was your day?

is everything fine there?

i bet it is.

i am sure it is not that hard for you to keep alive

and leave everything behind, right?

but,

i can't do the same here

we haven't talked for almost a month

and i am still struggling with myself

and all of the feelings inside me here

you know what?

the memories keep running around inside my head.

how we were so fine that night,

how we sang a happy song before the moment happened,

how you teased me that night and we laughed together.

but then, everything has changed in just a snap.

is it alright if i call it the most pathetic moment ever happened?

"you miss me huh?"

multiple times i did answer no and pretend

and now, it would be a lie if i say no

cause yeah i do

oh no, i mean i am.

one time,

i tried to scroll what we used to talk about at night.

it is not that much actually

but they all are amazing

well i wish we could repeat it again

but no, i will keep the wish away,

and watch your name drowning slowly.

i am sorry.

i used to be the one who said don't leave,

but it was me who choose to leave first.

i was hurt and sick of myself that day.

i just didn't wanna make you feel annoyed by the guilt i shared.

honestly,

i had a plan to go back to you.

at least after the feeling just get better,

so i can show you the happy me.

but, after i read a wish you told for someone else.

well i decide to throw it all away and make it not come true.

i promise you it won't happen.

tsana said,

the reason why is because i miss u

did i make it so clear?

it is alright.

i just feel sorry for my time cause it always hides a lot.

and here i am,

telling you the truth how much i miss the conversation we used to do at night.

how much i miss facing the grumpy you, then we joke around.

nothing happened in the way i wanted,

if i could had one wish tonight, well maybe i would say i wanted to go back to the start.

but no, i just don't wanna ruin anything no more for the second time.

especially knowing the truth that i will definitely ruin the feelings you have for that person.

whatever it is,

i really wish you can go back to the person who gave you so much memorable things.

it would be amazing i guess to hear you back with the person you love the most.

i am so happy we met.

so much happiness we did in February, and i am so thankful for that.

stay healthy and have a lot of fun.

goodbye, i quit.